think i getting depression liao.
aiya.. this week burn my hand on that oven, forgot to bring lab key, then make mr chan search up and down for spare.. haha.. left my keys on the table when i jus reminded myself to take them, left my money in my pockets then putting them into the washing machine.. forgetting the duedate of the books i borrowed, forgetting to take the weight of the chemicals that i weighed.. forgetting wat i had done and where i leave my papers, forgetting to bring things into the store then have to walk extra..
plus that nicholas had his exam the last three days.. and he told me the wrong dates, then last week i had to rush everything for HIM. and yet at the lessons, he tell me he haven study. making me freak out. and yes. now i am violent. i cant control liao. but i am still trying to control. and during past papers that i gave him, he did ok.. jus till last week, the mock exam and revision papers me and his sch gave him, HE FAILED! sick la. haiz. why ah. i think he has that pre-exam fear. and now, after exams, he's in that after exam relax mode. making me have to beat him lo.. and yet he tot i playing and keep laughing.. how sickening can that get. and the family hoh, i think they peeping outside leh.. well, i was toking at a rather loud voice, but he's laughing his lungs out. and the family tot i letting him enjoy after the exam. sick la.
haiz. i trying to drill into his head that he still got his SA2 lo!! and then his reply is.. got exam meh.. finish liao ma.. dun have la.. i dunno!! must ask teacher first..
will die or not.. haiz.
oh ya.. that storeman ah ho hoh, quitting liao.. haha.. he very cute one leh.. always sajiao.. they say hoh, he always say he quitting liao.. say till now very long liao so no one believe him.. haha.. but this time real liao.. the first time i do sampling, he keep telling me, to learn this learn that cos he leaving soon liao.. then must know.. oh.. haha.. but hoh, me and meiyan went thru the pros and cons of him quitting.. he's a good colleague, someone very nice and fun to work with. haha..
cons meaning, the production and store is going to become havoc liao.. then the D/Os all that i have to find out the real product is wat liao.. then still got alot.. haiz.
pros meaning, the QC department, (me and meiyan) haha.. will be able to control and drill the correct methods into the new storeman.. haha.. cos we both were drilled by ah ho instead.. his ko3 cai2 is damn yi4 ji2 bang4 k.. haha..
oh ya.. one external company came to do air and microbial monitoring.. haha.. and then, i could spot so many mistakes in their way lo.. then i told meiyan.. and she say ya lo.. they sldnt like this like that hoh.. haha.. but the ppl who came, experience is since long long time ago liao.. so we like in no position to tell them.. haiz.. haha..
aiya.. okok.. i go sleep liao.. 4 more hours.. nitez.
my ah ma will get well soon.

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
2:29 AM

i dun like it when ppl give me no choice by not replying then reply again after very long and force me to have to answer in a way that i will have to agree. when i dowan, i mean i dowan. eventhough i dun say it straight forwardly. even if i do agree, its all only because i am giving face. and i dun like answering with answers that i know that person want. i like saying the right opposite. So?
sick and angry. i think its all because of my hair. damnit. i am still angry. idiot.
that sickening nicholas didnt read my notes. went shopping instead. damnit. wanna slap him liao. no matter how cute a person is, once i get irritated, that person is jus irksome.
okok... relax.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna hit ppl!!!!!!!
haiz. well, i did pinch him on monday, for sneezing right into my face. making me getting a flu and sorethroat. and spreading to the rest of the company. meiyan also sick liao la. haiz. think its cos of the barley water ba.. haiz.
haiz haiz haiz.
okok.. haiz.
i hope ah ma get well soon.. wanted to go over to visit her today.. but.. got all the details but didnt know which hospital.. haiz..
ok... back to writing notes...
SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:59 PM

alamak.. too many things to update.. see wat i can remember lo hoh.. haha..
shit la.. now got one dragonfly in my room... its in the lights now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid... so now i am in the dark.. cos later the lights too hot then it burn how.... haha.. not that i am kind ok.. its cos i think, when need to clean the lights, the dragonfly die inside very er xin... haha... how am i gonna sleep tonight??!!!!! argh.... haiz.. think i am going to wrap myself with my blanket and stuff to death or watch tv the whole night liao.. now if i hear a dragonfly sound, i am gonna run liao.. haha..
stupid dragonfly..
my eyes gonna spoil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz
haha.. yup.. now for updating.. hmm.. wait.. jus receive a msg from alester.. he ask wat i doing.. damn lame.. feli, help me scold him for wasting his sms k.. haha..
ok.. for the past two weeks, i was not feeling well.. last monday, felt very warm during work.. then after work, continued to go teach nicholas.. during dinner, felt very weak.. like cannot walk like that.. then when teaching him, felt so hot lo.. cos angry plus not well.. can feel myself burning.. went home sick.. then measure my temperature.. 38.78 degrees.. was like cannot think properly also.. ate some medicine.. nearly choke to death.. during teaching, i really can qi4 si3.. haiz..
then next day, felt better liao so went to work as usual.. was so blur lo.. and did so many wrong things.. worst thing is i screw one screw into the HPLC column too tightly.. then the screw broke and stuck in the column.. haiz.. meiyan was so afraid that we will need to buy one new column.. cos one will cost thousand plus.. so upset that day.. went home and measure my temperature.. 38 degrees.. haiz.. but lucky got one uncle manage to save it.. he open it and change some things inside.. haha.. scared meiyan.. haha.. then when going home that time, meiyan explain to me that she was very worried that the company need to spend extra to buy.. cos still got alot of equipments we need to get.. expenses very high.. then she say normally she let me do the things on my own, cos she see i can do.. but she reminded me that if i really dunno how to, then can ask her.. haha.. cos normally i dunno, i will be experimenting myself to find the answer..
wednesday, the sore throat came out liao.. but still went work.. the uncle making the medicine there, was making vitamin C that day.. so when i went to collect sample, he recommend me to eat some.. haha.. i was like ok... but thinking.. haven do testing leh.. cannot pass then how.. haha.. the chemist told me vitamin eat liao wont die one.. haha.. the vitamin taste ok la.. haha.. very orangey.. then meiyan ask me wan the paracetamol or not.. haha.. i then dowan.. dowan choke man.. haha..
thurs, after work, went to teach again.. this time, i implemented something new.. a performance chart!! haha.. stating his understanding, behaviour, concentration and performance!! haha... i am running out of unhappy face stickers.. haha.. now hoh, all my lessons, i will be toking rather loud then he will be rather soft.. not his normal happy and playful type liao.. hahaha... but i really hate teaching.
aiya the rest forget it liao la.. dun wan write liao.. feeling warm warm liao.. write short short liao..
oh ya.. feli and gera ah.. very long nv see u all liao..
last wed went with regina to visit jon at his workplace.. haha.. got a very very big ice cream.. haha me and reg eat till very full.. haha then stood at his shop there to tok and shun bian advertise hoh.. haha.. but thanks jon!! even gave us some pastries.. haha..then went for dinner with regina at thai express.. haha.. tok quite alot.. haha.. meet up soon!
then oh ya.. on 9th august 2005, Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!!!!
i went cut my hair.. damn regret it.. even though already 5 days liao.. i still very angry at that woman. remember her face.. nv gonna cut there anymore!!! shit. haiz.. even meiyan says its a mistake..
haha.. stupid idiot.
okok.. this week.... suddenly got alot of raw materials and production.. do till i wan vomit blood.. haha but was fun!! thats wat's nice about working.. its about enjoying k.. the storekeeper for western production, ah ho.. haha was also very busy.. then gave me alot of D/O for sampling and testings.. then i write finish liao then faster go give him liao.. i mean the QC stickers.. but he not around.. so i ownself search for samples lo.. haha.. cos sort of know where he put everything liao.. then after an hour, ah ho came and remind me to go collect samples then give him the stickers.. then i say i done them liao.. then he ask for the stickers.. then i say.. i paste them liao.. then he say "huh??!! ze me kuai ah.." meiyan told him he became slow liao.. haha then he insist he's not slow.. haha.. on friday, think ah ho is trying to compete speed with me sia.. haha.. plus i got 2 tablet products and one capsule products plus some raw materials to test.. dunno how to say.. haha.. but i am going to be faster.. i like competition.. haha.. more motivation ma..
yup.. then normally hoh, we only do at most 4 or 6 chromatograms for each HPLC.. we got 2.. but friday, we had a total of 38 chromatograms!!!! we missed we had a very late lunch at 2pm.. and missed our tea break in the afternoon.. haha.. but was fun la.. though the samples very sickening.. haha.. then we did OT till 730... gonna be giving ah ho alot of stickers to paste.. write till my hand pain ah..
u know wat... everytime, no matter wat job i am doing, for the first few weeks i will be having dreams on them one.. dreaming of ways to improve.. haha.. think is stress on myself.. haha.. hope i will stop making silly mistakes liao.. i am gonna try coordinate my timing better too.. then can be faster..
haiz.. ok.. wan die liao.. head very heavy liao.. think too long nv so late sleep liao.. tml gonna do some stuff for tuition.. SIAN. and can u believe it??!! i actually wrote notes on cards for him when i dun even write notes for myself!!!!!!!!! sian sian sian.. worse still is.. he told me he wants to give up when he cant do a question and he dowan read notes.. sick. i scolded him for that.. sld have done so more harshly.. and i made him say thank you for my notes.. haha.. the past two lessons he quite well behave and more spontaneous liao.. think he is after my happy face stickers.. haha..
wait long long sia.. i very niao one.. haha.. i can easily find fault with anything.. so.. i will still be giving out unhappy face stickers ba.. hahahaha...
okok.. go sleep liao.. STUPID DRAGONFLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! think it loves my light..
going to the living room.. haiz. sick!

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
3:27 AM