ytd, tok and explain things for the whole day till i no voice. then went sit cable car!! haha so funny.. play till no voice also.. today is really no voice.. and its so stupid and irritating.. so when i tok, the first few words sure zao2 xia1 (zou3 ying1).. so sickening la.. everyone ask me to eat pipa gao.. for throat one la.. haha..
then now i having my 4th wisdom tooth.. and its really stupid la.. cos this last one is swollen.. and then i cannot bite properly.. and i cant tok properly also lo... cham la..
i jus finish another part of the "project".. haha.. so nice.. =) but i still got alot to do la.. hmm..
then today i got quite frustrated cos.. i cannot tok properly, then when i tok, i use alot of strength.. then... the 2 new ger, keep asking the same question... haiz.. but i tried to control my temper la.. cos my whiteboard wrote, "smile and the whole world smile with u". cannot contradict myself right? haha..
then had meeting with the boss jason.. haha.. he say last time they didnt realise my potential.. then say he like my working method.. very involved.. haha.. felt happy that i am appreciated la.. thats why i managed to finish a part.. haha.. really exhausted liao..
and he ask me to hand over my method to them.. haiyo.. its like... so confusing la.. meiling, the new ger asked today.. "so on average, how many times u go to the production site huh?" i dunno leh.. i only know the whole day i never stop walking.. only sit down rest a while and during lunch time only..
and is very bao1 ga4 liao4.. haha.. not really la.. jus that i keep track on almost everything.. in my brain.. thats why i going to crash liao.. they were asking.. "huh.. then how to remember... no photographic memory leh.." i told them to go improve their memory.. haha.. no la.. jus understand everything lo.. follow process then can liao..
aiya.. i going sleep le.. tml still got alot of things to do!!!! haiz..
nitez...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVEN DO THE HSA REPLY!!!!! &^%&^$#@#$%@$#@%^^@#$#!@

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
1:56 AM

yeah!! i jus play with a program.... then i combined 2 songs together.. but dunno others can hear or not.. haha.. can hear the song in my blog? hmmm.. cos i cannot decide wat song to put la.. hehe...
nitez.. will combine more.. =)

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
1:38 AM

had some tots jus now, but guess i better not type it out. if not i no need sleep le... hahahaa.. not very impt anyway, jus a tot abt my learning method.. haha..
okok.. said i will do the "project" for the new ppl in the lab right? btw, there's another new ger coming work tml!! haha..
ya.. abt the "project"... pls do not believe me when i say i will do my best.. hahaha... i need ppl to push me one sia.. i procrastinating now.. cos... everything is in my brain.. and i am a damn disorganised person.. as in everything is distorted in my brain.. i am a confusing person and i like confusing myself that sometimes i get frustrated.. now..., i cant get anything out.. but if anyone ask question on how to do this and that, i can tell that person.. haiz.. but i dunno where to even start.. only manage my favourite instrument.. HPLC.. haha.. jus starting up got 26 steps.. and i think the page damn messy.. haiz... haiz.. so sian la..
so i came up to slack lo.. but i going to sleep le.. can feel my eyes tired and strained..
I KNOW!!!! i going to give them a book each tml then, ask them to take down everything i say, then i bring home the book and jus type them out!!!! hahahaha..
clever hoh.. but if they write out liao, i still type for wat? hahaha...
i can use their method of presentation to present my things.. haha.. then maybe easier..
aiya...... why am i doing extra things.. haiz.. u think i am doing extra things too?? i think so too.. thats why i feel so sian.. but i jus wanna be responsible.. but i might not even complete in the end.. haha.. jus like the other time at my attachment company, GE.. haha.. cos that time my supervisor also left then i had to teach a new guy.. haha.. but heng that time got other ppl there can help him la.. see first lo..
ytd went fortune telling with mummy.. but, the person not around.. this time 2nd time le.. we say, we not fated to meet la.. haha... then went shopping.. crazy one.. when i went to try one thing, my mummy will carry on finding and let me try.. make me cannot go out.. haha.. we ended buying alot of things.. anyhow buy things... see cute then try then buy liao.. siao one.. haha.. next time must control liao.. but so funny la..
i am eating too much high cholesterol things liao.. i ate 3 times laksa (with nothing else except cockles) and 3 times fried kuay teow, 2 times hokkien mee, fast food, midnight snack(snatched from sandy when she buy home after work) and forgot others, this month... btw, i eat a chicken wing almost everyday after work while walking home.. haha.. and i eat alot too!! but can tell me why i getting skinnier?? haiz..
ok la.. i go sleep le.. tired.. nitez..

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
12:09 AM

ytd went for the NUS interview.. sucks la.. came out so upset..
cos they reminded me of that unsucessful shell interview. haiz. sick.
anyway, went in and was asked a question feli spotted the other day at my house.. "why is ur results so lousy?"
i told them watever la.. squash la.. and wrong choice of answer K!!!! haiz.. prove that i cannot cope with 2 things la... wrong ans!!! once i say out i regretted straight away liao.. but cannot change liao ma.. haiz..
then dunno wat la.. i also told them that i changing job.. then given a choice, wld i give up this year and try next year to settle down? i said, i dun mind la. then they also say, cos my results mostly B's and C's, scared i cannot cope well. then they suggest say i go take advance math in SP to strengthen my maths.. well, acceptable, i dun mind..
ya.. its ok one ma.. then they also say, (mostly is the chinese guy la, the other one more kind) "this course is not tough leh. is very tough. not like polytechnic so easy to pass leh." i was like *SHIt U..* angry la.. but still controllable la..
until.. they say why i didnt try the more to chem engineering kind of jobs.. then i became kind of emotional liao.. then they continued say should try more of process side one lo..
like i dowan and nv try lo!!.. haiz.. i jus told them i did but i wasnt very physically strong.. then there was silence and i left.
stupid la.. haiz.. i took at least one hour to control down myself. was dumb. dumb dumb dumb.
anyway, before this i alr tot of other things to do if i fail liao.. haha.. planning to take license.. haha.. try to ba.. theory first lo.. haha.. then say again liao lo.. that is if i not lazy..
me gonna do a project.. lab project.. and that is to make a manual of the things to do in my lab.. the procedures and all.. haha.. do u think i nothing find things do?? i think abit leh..
but hoh, this new ger hoh... 3 DAYS liao leh........ only learn how to do packaging materials and keep forgetting somemore.. haiz... and i gave her a book to write her own notes.. then she say can show her mine then she jus copy.. KAOZ... haiz.. like last time we do lab report like tt sia.. learn nothing la.. then i jus told her, "u see mine no use one.. u wont understand the way i organise my notes one.." i am a confusing person. i organise things only in my mind.
in the end, guess wat? 3 DAYS liao her notes still BLANK!!!!! haiz.. thats why i wan do extra ma.. help her do lo.. she happier la. i dowan harm the company also.. sian la.. can someone who learns fast come interview??? haiz.. we need another person also la.. sian..
ok la.. i must complete this project.. and i expect perfection.. cos its going to be done by me myself and i!!!!
nitez

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:52 PM

ytd intertek, the jurong island one la.. called me.. abt their job offer... haiz.. felt a bit xin1 tong4.. why lei? cos i wanted to be in the petrolchemical line la..... haiz... but i had to reject lo.. haiz.. one year later i'll be back.. haha..
tender my resignation liao.. ytd and today, the bosses ask if i really leaving.. ya la.. i only working till end of the month only.. then starting at gsk on the 3rd of april.. so this means i nv break till la.. haiz..
then ytd sam came for the interview.. then the boss sort of dowan jus A level.. cos now she doing part time uni ma.. then he cannot say earlier one leh.. make her come all the way then like that tell me... idiotic..
then today i think my boss submitted an ad to look for a lab assistant.. then i think he spell my course name wrongly.. should be chemical and pharmaceutical tech, he wrote chemistry of pharmaceuticals... a bit funny la.. maybe he wanted to write it that way la..
very tired liao.. wan sleep le.. no brain to think wat to write also..
okok.. nitez... tml still got customer come *sort of audit* and HSA also.. sian la.. pls dun come my lab.. i prefer to be alone than ppl invading the place *other than helping me la*..
okok.. bye..

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:28 PM

i am so suay!!!! bring home work to do, then do some liao and save into a floppy, then now my floppy got problem!!!!!!!! stupid la!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.... why am i so suay.. haiz.. that foppy got all my important documents also lo........ like my final year project, resumes, cover letter..!!!!!!!!! stupid la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ytd went for the medical check up.. the admin ppl hoh.. tok so loud one.. make me so paiseh. and the auntie measure my height.. and say.. 161.5cm.. !!! i see its at least 161.9cm lo!!!!!!!!!!! why cannot jus give me 162!!! irritated.. but amusing how the admin ppl was making themself confused and flustered with each other.. no trust with each other at all.. bad working team..
haha.. went to three different clinics at 3 different places.. in 3 hours.. the doctor say i got slight low blood pressure.. haha.. see.. i knew it.. haha.. then he say i too skinny, need to be fatter.. ask me to put on 10 more kilos.. diao... then i told him i like tt for dunno how many years liao lo.. then he suggested ways to make myself plumper.. haha..
he also took my blood for blood test.. i like no blood one lo.. he took more than 5 mins to take abt 20ml of blood.. during tt time, he was moving the needle about.. painful lo.. i didnt dare to see him poke it in.. but i see him take the blood out.. quite a funny session.. haha..
ok.. then i took a cab back to my office.. when i got out of the cab, think i too violent liao.. but is the door like swing too fast open lo.. and it bang into the lorry parked beside.. haha.. i was like "sorry sorry sorry!!!!" haha... the driver was laughing.. haha..
on friday, i stayed to do OT.. all alone in the lab.. all alone in the whole office la.. quite errie la.. then my radio no batt somemore.. but i went to change the batt la.. scary ma.. haha.. before i was alone, still got the boss.. then he suddenly came in.. i tot he so good wan buy dinner for me.. but he told me he got something on, need go first.. say the old boss will come back to lock the door.. diao... i knew he wasnt tt good.. haha..
in the end, the old boss and lady boss came back and suddenly open my door to scare me.. haha.. but ok la.. after a while, the lady boss ask me want dinner or not.. i knew that they haven wat lo.. so after a while more, i stop my work to go home lo.. so they dun have to wait for me ma.. they 70++ liao leh.. then they fetch me to the MRT.. so good right..
aiya.. so sian liao la.. haiz..
haiz... so much work to do!!!!!!!!!! i wan to give up liao la... that admin ANNA hoh, friday wan go home liao hoh, then tell me she forgot to tell me got new packaging materials come.. then i didnt collect the samples lo.. then now got so many!!!!!!!!!!! when she told me, i really very angry liao lo.. want scold ppl liao.. and when she was telling me, she was touching me!!!!! like comforting me like tt.. and when i angry, i dun like ppl to touch me esp my shoulder!!! I will be angrier.. but i tolerated.. stupid ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now the whole lab really like warzone lo.. only i will know where the things are placed. cos they are all not in their original places.. the boss came in and was lookng for the site master file.. he stood there for 5 minutes looking for it from the shelf.. before asking help from me.. so sickening.. come in and block my space.. haha... and they always last min ask me do other things. make me no time to do wat i planned to do that day!!!!!! sickening la..
haiz.. okok... i dun complain liao..
i go see if i can still do the work liao la.. if not i jus use write one liao la.. faster and dun need to save somemore.. haha save time..
okok... byebye

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
2:33 AM

haha.. i got the gsk job!!! haha... hope nothing's wrong with the medical check up tml.. haha.. then gonna sign contract on monday.. stress.. haha..
felt quite bad when i told my boss about it.. he appears to be ok with it.. gonna be training a new person.. and that would be sam!! but dunno when she will be coming.. haha.. my boss sort of say, if the new job is wat i am interested in, then i should continue with it.. so good right.. i felt so bad..
but i will try make everything nice nice one.
well, the new job got better benefits and all la.. only bad thing is far only.. boon lay, jurong or tuas there.. quality road one la.. the one with trees.. haha.. but good also cos here no need shift.. haha..
okok.. i go play awhile then i go do work liao.. bring some useless thing home to do.. haha.. paper separaters.. haha..
byebye.. nitez...

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:22 PM

....... weijing thinks i am silly........... "........................" hahahahaha........

ok.. today interview at JI is something i will say, zi4 tao3 mei2 qu4.. haha.. took at almost 2 hours to get to the company from jurong east... diao.. always very lucky got transport in.. so nv buy the bus ticket myself before, and nv tried going in myself before also.. haha.. but i still managed to find my way la.. last time i went into Jurong Island was probably more than 1/2 a year ago liao ba.. but it still manage to fansinate me.. haha...
waited for the stupid bus for a very very long time.... haha.. then when i got down at the bus stop, i still had to walk at least 1km to the guard house.. then continue to the company building.. its beside seraya chem.. haiz.. ok.. went in and sort of flung this interview.. haha.. cos tired and moody.. ppl must be thinking i siao, wear formal and walking along the road.. damn sunny la.. and very hot..
when i finish, i walk all the way out again.. until i reach outside, then got one kind soul say give me a lift to the checkpoint.. hahaha i crazy one.. actually followed him.. haha.. but he very nice la. and i going to be late for work ma.. and ppl inside not bad ppl one ba.. reach the checkpoint then i kept thanking him.. haha.. change back the pass liao, then got one kind taxi uncle.. haha.. wave from across the checkpoint.. haha.. then i took the cab back lo.. while toking to him, told him me going to work.. then he suggest i get down at the nearest mrt.. cos still got quite sometime, so can take mrt back.. he say, can save money also.. so good right.. he says, in everyday life, money is not the most impt.. its the mind and the heart.. true to a certain extend.. but its true.. even if one has all the money in the world, but have a devious mind and bad heart, one will nv be happy.. and unhappiness is actually the real torture.. so be happy!! haha...
met 2 kind souls which definitely lift up my mood alot alot!!! haha.. was happy the whole day i can say.. nv get angry with anyone, which i normally does.. hahaha
tml the boss wan have meeting with me.. going to psycho me to take up 2 ppl job again.. haiz.. what should i say?? today he didnt use the reverse psycho.. he use another method.. and that is, giving me power to make decisions.. haha.. one sentence he said to the admin anna.. "QC already reject liao, u ask me also no use ma.."
haha.. i tot its an autocratic company???
aiya.. no matter wat, i will still need someone to help one ma.. my leg already swollen due to too much walking liao la.. and i only 1 and 1/2 day nv go work, then the work like pile up so much... make me crazy... so many things to do.. haiz..
see how liao lo..
haiz.. dunno wat i wan in life liao.. so sian le..
byebye
take care everyone.
*told u i getting addicted to com liao.. everyday come online.. siao.*
bye

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:28 PM

know wat is called i am very very sian.... haiz.. i am nv going to send so many resumes at one shot liao.. SO SICKENING!!!! and i dun like to take leave u see... and yet these few days, i have been going to 2 interviews a day.. and tml i still got another one at jurong island!!!! haiz........... very tired liao..... haiz.. so stupid...
and somemore, even my application to NUS BTech Chem Engineering i also have to go for interview!!!!!!!! kaoz la... dun say the word interview in front of me anymore.. i dun like it at all.. haiz.. why.... why i have to go for interview.. haiz....
today went to biolyn and gsk.. suprising how biolyn jus started only and they are quite famous liao.. but i think i wont want to join them if i am shortlisted la.. cos they only have pH and viscosity meters!!!!! diao... haha.. and is help them do SOP and project kind one.. things with no specific answers.. so sian.. haiz.. but ok la.. the tech building really very nice.. comfortable environment also..
then went down to quality road gsk.. this time not 3 ppl interviewing me.. is 4.. and all of them so stern one.. scare me to death.. but how come everyone that i see these few days like so familiar one? hmm.. oh ya.. they were asking me questions then i was answering wat i dunno wat i was toking.. in the end, after i realise i was going out of point and want to do a U-turn, my answer seem funny and they also smiling.. hahaha... but i really drain out liao.. dowan to do anymore interviews le.. they say if shortlisted, still will have another interview... DIAO>..... btw, the HR lady say my interview with them seems very calm.. haha.. at first i was nervous lo.. until they got smile then i better.. was playing with my legs under the table.. haha..
i feel so guilty that i am taking leave, MC etc to go for interviews.. got so many things to do in lab.. haiz.. and i still like tt.. is it normal?? haiz..
but i will still try my best to complete everything.. i going to stress myself to death liao la.. and yet i tell gsk ppl that i work well under stress.. haha.. true to a certain extend only.. ahhh......
hope that my company boss faster ask sam come down for interview.. if not i going to feng1 diao4.. due to my OMO *they say is one man operation*... soon i wont remember how to tok... haha...
oh ya.. my mummy bought my a new bolster... so STIFF!!!!!!!! i can hit sandy with it.. hahahaha and she force me to throw away my old one.. its like asking a kid to throw away her pacifier.. *sad* i was like hugging it like a siao char bo, even my mummy laugh at me.. haha.. but she also feel guilty that she bought me such a stiff one.. she went like "u really wan keep ur old one ah.. but then this new one how.. dunno where to put leh.." in the end she still force me throw away.. this is an autocratic family... haha.. i miss my old bolster.. ytd cannot sleep well, resulting in my extra big panda eyes today.. ahh... my *get rid of panda operation* fail liao la... haiz..
ok... i go off le.. not going to come online again today liao ba.. so upset.. haiz.. i getting addicted to the com again liao... must kick this habit.. okok...
bye...
jus found out... there are only 11 ppl who need go for the NUS interview!!!!!!!!!! and i am the FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!! must i really be so suay???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz..
must i remain so suay for this whole 2006?? or until when???!!!!!!! haiz... i need go fortune telling liao.. need to change luck liao.. AAARRRRGGGHHHHHH...................................

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
5:31 PM

today, my boss tried using reverse psychology to cheat me into taking 2 ppl jobs.. as in me to take up the QA task and QC task.. but he say my pay will increase la.. when u try using reverse psychology on me, u will find that it nv works.. haha.. i told him straight in the face before he even finishes his sentence. "no.. i dowan.." then he went.. "huh.. ok lo.." wanted to joke and ask, if i take 2 ppl job, does it mean i get 2 ppl pay??? haha if yes, then i wouldnt mind. if not, why should i?? i then wont find things to stress myself to death la.. there were originally 3 ppl working in the lab ok.......
think EK very ke3 lian2.. the boss ask him to work from 12pm to 9pm leh.. the whole company only him leh.. so scary one.. but he is very nice.. he also looking for job.. haha.. the only person who knows about my interviews now.. and when he looking at papers, he also help me find leh.. haha.. so good..
asked samantha to send me her resume, since like one week ago.. she nv change one sia.. forever take her own sweet time.. haiz.. at least today she send me liao la.. and it ends up that her mail became distorted and i had to edit before i print out and show the boss.. when i saw her resume, i was like.. haiz.. die liao.. not really related.. but i dunno how my boss see.. he say its ok leh.. diao.. fine lo..
i was thinking, if i get other jobs, maybe i still can come down to my company to do part time leh.. haha.. as in handover stuff la.. i not so heartless la.. but dunno can or not leh.. haha..
tml me going to 2 more interviews.. gsk other plant and biolyn international.. haha.. i still hope i get gsk one leh... hahahaha.. but i prefer the pioneer road one.. haha.. then i found out, i prefer places with no trees!!! best is no grass also.. best will be all concrete la.. hahahaaha.. the pioneer road one gives me a very bright feeling, while the quality road one like dark dark ulu ulu one..
i was deciding today, whether to take leave or MC.. but i dowan bluff MC leh.. nv bluff before ma.. so i went on a bringe today.. eating rubbish and eat fast fast.. so i will get tummy upset.. hahaha
told my mummy, then she say ya lo. tml go see doctor take MC lo.. haha *SHOCKED* if i was schooling and i told her this, i think i will get beaten up sia.. haha.. so funny.. hahahaha then i told her my plan on getting tummy upset, she called me *crazy woman*.. haha.. siao char bo.. so funny. my mummy so cute!!!!!!!
then we went on to tell my daddy that i going to take MC to go interview.. he went shaking his head and haiz... haha.. but so funny la.. but nv tell him i trying to make myself get tummy upset.. he will get angry one..
today at the interchange, i saw one of my pri sch teacher.. she dont recognise me anymore.. haiz.. but i still remember, her first class during her role as a trainee teacher was my class.. hahaha. the class full of brains to tekan the teacher.. she always cry after teaching my class.. haha.. but seeing her now, so different liao.. haha like look so experience and confident liao lo.. haha.. still remember how my class always make teacher cry.. until got one teacher wanted to give up teaching.. and we felt so guilty, we tried to be apologetic and tried making her happier.. ok.. now shes still teaching in my pri sch.. haha.. now like very fierce kind liao lo.. haha.. my class had a bunch of very cute little fellows.. hahahaha
on sat, me and sandy went to shop for a digi cam.. cos her toro coming to singapore.. diao... and i wanted to take down memories as well.. haha.. find that photograhy is also very interesting.. expensive sia.. but nv regret still la.. i still like my cam... haha.. my mummy also like it. haha even though she always says the opposite.. hahhaha. she likes to be on camera u see.. hahahaha *thats wat i say* and she says her most natuaral pic is when she is nagging.. hahahahaha.. so funny.. we wanted to let her know how irritating it is.. instead she find it funny.. hahaha.. ahhh.. means we will get more nagging... haiz.. haha..
ok la.. these few days very busy and i was walking very fast.. at first didnt feel anything.. but cos weekends rest liao ma.. then today my muscle cramp liao lo.. haha but i was really very busy.. haha.. i modified my lab into a very messy one.. cos i can work under messy environment as well.. the reason why i pack my things when i was working with BY is cos she cannot stand it.. haha.. and if i dun pack, she will start packing and throwing unneccesary things from my table.. and i cant stand ppl packing my table.. cos i will lose things.. so adapt to her lo.. now i also started pasting things on the wall like noticeboard like that.. but neat neat one la.. cos the tables in the lab are all filled with things.... hahaha.. so who wan work with me?? i am adaptable one...
now alot of things cos i still trying to standardize ma.. complete then qing1 song1 liao lo..
ok la.. me go off le ba.. dunno wat to do liao.. can feel my stomach going to have something wrong liao... haha..
bye..

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
7:39 PM

well, i rejected the offer.. hahaha.. cos really not good la.. same pay, place far, lesser leave, higher medical allowance, but got aws and variable.. haha..
but not interested liao la..
went to gsk interview.. haha.. waited for xinying at boonlay then we took cab in. me to gsk and she went to pfizer.. haha..
well, i still cannot hide my keen-ness.. haha.. too keen liao.. haha.. but dunno how is it yet.. she also ask me go down to the other plant for interview also.. haha.. and say, if get the job, they will buy me out of my present company.. wah... i so touched. haha..
haiz.. dunno la.. see how lo..
who wan come work????? haiz..
ask boss to find himself.. haha. i think i will stress myself with guilt to death man.. haiz..
okok.. *get rid of panda* operation is not working yet.. even more tired than usual..
haha..
okok.. i go liao.. i dun wanna take leave anymore......
nitez...

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:27 PM

went down for the interview ytd.. and guess wat??!!! today i receive a sms... i got the job!!!!!!!! but the HR will only tell me the details tml.. how how how??!!!! cos i dowan this one liao.... so far, so inaccessible.. and the bus like 1 hour then got one.. in the end, when going home, i walk all the way back to boon lay mrt.. and fell asleep on the train.. imagine if everyday like that how..
and somemore is doing R&D.. creating test methods.. like project like that sia.. so boring one.. but still quite fun la.. cos got my favourite machine.. the HPLC!!!!!!!! hahaha.. but i dun like to do things that dun have a specific answer leh.. sian la..
tml i going for another 2 interviews.. i hope to get the GSK one la.. cos the place like so nice!!! got alot of pipings.. haha... but is shift work la.. haiz.. how.. the other one is in ubi area.. QA officer.. dunno do wat one.. see first la. why no process technician one..... haiz.. i think i still prefer petrochem side.. as in outdoor one.. i wan the sun!!!!!!!!!! haiz..
but after going out to look for jobs, suddenly think that i cant find one like my present company.. timing good, pay still ok.. only the jobscope not very good only.. actually is just lack of the testing only.. but others still ok la.. still a gmp company la.. and now i can have chance to scold ppl la.. hahahahaha.... but i nv scold la.. i only say... "cannot like that...................." but i really damn busy nowadays.. cos BY really left everything undone.. and i have to finish them for her.. if not i think i still can cope one.. haiz.. but i will do my best to complete everything!! like wat i did for the western medicine.. but wat the use.. it also close down.. waste my time to make everything uniform and nice... haiz..... now its starting from square one again.. haiz..
but that also means i can modify to the way i like.. suddenly think that actually still can do one.. haiz.. dunno leh.. should i continue looking for a job??? and maybe its also because i feel guilty.. cos the boss say wat, ask me find a fren whom i have mo4 qi4 with.. and that is like.. damn little... i can only say, there is only one fren who got total mo4 qi4 with me.. as in its a both side thing.. thats loretta.. but..... haiz.. anyway, its ok.. cos i believe i can work with anyone.. but to be frank, no matter who work with me right, i sure will get angry with that person one.. but its ok la.. after work then ok liao.. haha.. so... who wan?????
and ya.. the boss say wat trust me la, watever la...... dun say u trust me la........... i will become soft hearted one.. haiz... then the boss mum also treat me very good.. like come and try to help me.. but... for me is, i prefer ppl not to touch my table.... or anything anywhere in the lab... haha.. but ok la.. today, during tea break time, i still busy then nv go.. then she came in and ask me go for tea break.. then i say i still busy later then go.. then she ask me continue lo... she say she go get food and drink for me... kaoz.. how can la... i also will pai seh la.. so i jus throw everything there and went to the pantry with her lo.. plus cannot eat in the lab la..... later boss see till sack me ah.... hahahahhaha *haiz how i wish* anyway, i jus feel like everyone is like trying to tok to me.. very nicely like that.. i feel so weird.. other than that, the uncles are like asking me to go find a new job, say here no more prospect. i also know.. haiz.. but... i dunno how to quit one la... but my resignation form already printed liao.. haven sign only.. next time must change the date liao.. next time then say la..
but truthfully, i think my company is a very good place for new graduates.. ya.. when u are new, there are alot of things to learn.. really.. jus that now only no need do testing only.. sian.. teach me how to use that AAS leh.. i nv use until it at all.. but nobody knows how to operate and i dun dare to switch it on.. later i need to pay tens of thousands... *spoil it la*
sian la.. if i got fren come work with me, i also pai seh to leave ma.. later my fren think i find her come cos i wan to throw all the shit work to her.. but no... its really a very good learning experience.. plus i confirm finish all the shit work and make everything nicely before i leave one.. really.. learning QC and QA is fun.. jus that the boss spoil everyone mood cos this is an autocratic company.. haiz.
who cares la.. when i start doing things my way, i also wont accept other ppl's way one la.. like that then uniform ma..
haiz.. oh ya.. ytd the interview hoh, i adapted Sandy's interview method.. cos her teacher says her interview skills not bad.. haha.. friendly, happy-go-lucky and frank.
i really tok to them like fren lo.. very normally.. appearance la.. haha but hoh, i was playing with the application form below the table.. until the interview ended, i found out that the form was rotten on one side... hahahahhaaha stupid hoh me.. haha.. i told them my company western close down, they like SOoooOooOo happy. cos they are competitors ma..... hahahaha.... when they ask wat is one thing i wan to improve or change abt myself, i tot for a very long time.. then give them the lame look.. *nothing leh...* then they say.. "so u are perfect la.." i gave the lame look again.. "not really la.. but nothing much to improve la.. everything still ok la.." damn BHB lo..
aiya.. dunno how i get that job also one la.. sian.. everytime i wish that company dun call me up, sure will opposite one.. but companies i really wish to get in, i always screw up one.. this tells me one thing.. dun show that i am really really SOosoOooosooOOO keen.. must relax and jus be myself.. haiz.. wish i didnt screw up last time.
but anyway, i already screwed up.. no more chance there anymore... sian.. HAIZ>.... i still grieving over it..
ok la.. i go sleep liao la.. still having the *getting rid of panda* operation...
okok.. nitez!!!

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