Shut up and jus go away! Stop restricting watever I do! U get upset jus cos I am going to sentosa! Tell me dun mix w this kind of frens.
Seriously, I m tired of this kind of restriction! Others dun see it, jus cos u are not like this to my other 2 sisters!
U know wat, ya watever shit I do is forever wrong! No matter how much I listen and try to please u, u'll still be unhappy. So be it!
I am stressed up, but nobody seems to understand. Thinking tt I am jus lazy and stressless! I am stressed cos of all these!
I can nv do watever I like. My life is as if it sld be controlled by u.
I am not some toy w factory settings! I have my own thinking jus like buzz liteyear!
I jus wanna do wat I always wanted to do, minus all tt bloody restrictions.
I JUS WANNA DO WAT I WAN! Be the me that I am, and not the me that u drew me to be!
I lost alot of chances for experiences, cos whenever I asked, the ans would be "must u go?" "no" "it's not necessary" "cannot, it's dangerous" "later u get cheated" seriously, I am sick of that.. That at the later part, I didn't even bother to ask if I can go these, do that anymore! Jus cos watever frens I made are condemned to be out there waiting to cheat me!
I jus wan to be who I am!
\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:12 PM
When i am old and not my original self,
Please be understanding and patient with me.
When i spill the soup on my own clothes,
And forget how to tie my shoelaces,
Please think about how I had taught you, step by step to tie your shoelaces.
When you are tired by the words which i am repeating,
Please listen patiently and dont interrupt me.
When I need you to shower me,
Please dony blame me.
Do you remember how I had to coax your to take your shower?
When I am helpless with the new technology and things,
Please dont make fun of me.
Think about how I patiently answered every "Why" you had.
When both my legs are too tired to walk,
Please stretch out your strong hand to support me.
Jus as I stretched out my hand to you, when you were learning to walk.
When the conversation of our conversation slip my mind,
Please give me a little time to recall.
Actually, whatever the topic of our converstaion is of no importance.
I will be contented, as long as you are listening to me by my side.
When my time has come, please dont be sad.
Understand me, support me,
Jus as how I treated you, when you were starting to learn about living.
I had guided you on your life journey back then,
Now please stay with me until my journey ends.
Shower me with your love and patience, I will smile with gradtitude.
The smile of unconditional love for you.
~ i remember what papa had said many months or perhaps years ago.. that the thing he is most afraid of, is to become senile.. cos he dowan to become stupid and have to depend on others.. cos he used to really dislike old ppl when they were that way.. not dislike.. but feel frustrated with them.. and he felt he was becoming that way..
but no.. he did not.. he was a really independent dad.. he learnt how to sms, change the settings on tv (he knows more abt the tv than me..) and the computer too, with us only teaching him a few times.. the rest, he explored himself.. i remember him msging me that he left a bao for me and ask me to eat it when i returned home from class.. u wont be able to understand that kind of touched.. i teared and was so happy and delighted. that msg is in my old phone.. i dunno if it is gone... =(
ok.. i cant continue first le.. i'll talk abt my dad again.. getting too emo.. bye..
\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
6:16 PM
