Today wasn't a good day but I wouldn't say it's bad cos there's worse.
Early in the morning, ASM started planning work for me AGAIN. If I'd listened to her, everything would have gone wasted. Inaccurate info again(S).
then WFL came to complain to me that ASM planned her work too. And spoke to the chemist abt her plans for WFL.. -_-||| seriously, we can plan ourselves. And what are the chemists doing.. HAIZ major disappointment as the chemists... Dewaarimasen...
then, had last min orderings and reconfiguring of instruments tt would require parts to come in before 10may. It's really damn it la. Why can't the chemists understand the instruments well and foresee such happenings? Argh. And then EC, suggested to me that we could use what's still in the store though it's different. Oh yes, of cos I'd be delighted if those can be used. But no way i going to take responsibility to use those wo the chemist approval. I told him tt we need to discuss w the chemists etc.. But fell upon deaf ears cos we know clearly, the chemists wld reject as they'd prefer more convenient ways, wo extra validation. And so, I switched off to whatever he may suggest. I'd explore again when I am back. Jus dun like to give any possible chance to ppl to put blame on me cos I am away and cannot rebuke.
And yes. I spented a good 40mins exploring alternatives w EC and didn't go teabreak w WFL. and WFL came back and scream at me say if I didn't wan to go break, we could have gone water sampling earlier. I am damn pissed. Cos I weighed the 2 incidents and decide that I sld forecast the instrument problem first as once the method becomes effective, there's no other leeway. And water sampling, please! Is flexible for the whole day! Argh. And so I screamed back at her. Omg. Then I gathered tt she didn't know I was more stressed on tt and so I lowered my voice and became norm. Haiz.
Oh ya.. Then there was once, WFL ask me to go and teach her tt SAME thing for the upteen time! When I said, "AGAIN??!!" she shouted "aiya! TQW is not so free to teach me la!! Faster leh!!" and so immediately to me tots came in. "oh thanks man. I am so damn free lo." haiz and her voice.. Whole world can hear. That's why.. Ppl, pls think of consequences before u talk. U may jus ruin the other person, instantly, unintentionally.
But seriously, I got sick of teaching the same thing again and again when I know she jus prefer me to help her cos it's faster. I am not a saint, and my patience has long since disappeared.
Dear patience, please return soon. Haiz
Then during afternoon teabreak, everyone were at the pantry except ASM.. So u can expect what happened.. But well, everyones jus unhappy abt the same old things.. Nv compile results. Do alr nv update board, next person end up doing extra. <- I'd probably scream at her for tt. Results sheets in chunks.. Damn messy.. Etc etc. Whatever la.
But her whole day is like gossiping in the chemists office lo.. See alr, really will 不平衡 la. I am nothing better.. But at least I complete my stuff and i do not gossip abt ppl working there.
And that LYL... Gimme false info again! Make me order so much stock when actually there is still stock. I sld have jus trusted myself and check myself.. But if I were to do tt all the time, I'd probably spend my life in the store. Damn..
Oh.. Then I finish work at 430 ya.. And ASM shouted at 420 tt she wan me to do some ordering. I screamed at her, "为什么你现在才讲！你以为ordering这样straightforward 啊！要call supplier 拿quote then 等quote， 要 key 很多info 的！＂ then I said I am not going to order tt. Then she said, nvm, it's also not urgent. It's like TMD, then why u say till like tt stuff no more Liao, and say till so urgent and say at going to off work time??!! Aarrgghhh... Haiz..
Anyway, I scold CCL today for making WFL confused during my halfday leave ytd.. Halfday only u know!!!
Watever watever.....
Oh ya I wanted to 炫耀 my memory skill.. Ytd exam, last hour then I found put need to memorize all the formulas. And lucky MSY wrote all on 8pages of paper.. And I memorized all in 10min!! Well, that's my forte. She tested me also lo. Hahaha
Then in exam hall, I confused myself and dunno use what nonsense formulas.. Argh.. Confusing myself is my forte too. Damn.
I sld eliminate the 2nd.. I jus hope to pass.. T_T
Haiz..
3 more hours to my trip.. Why am I still not feeling any excitement? Argh... I am so tired alr la.. Haiz..

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
2:10 AM

2 kids and the mum walked into the train. The big bro quickly sets himself against the corner at the door comfortably and didn't allow the sis to do so. They were snatching the position in the first place, and he won. So he got to stand there. Then the mum scold and chided him a little. "you ah, always dun let ur sis." he said, "what.. I stand here first ma." then they started arguing. Not fighting. Jus plain normal arguement. Then the little girl said, "only ah, when u see till then we argue."
So what does tt mean? Tt if the mum nv sees, then the ger take it tt the bro is bullying and quietly accepts the bully? Or it's jus fair that since her bro got there first, he sld get that place? I believe it's the latter.
Anyway, it's true ya, tt if the mum saw and say abt the incident, any incident at all, the other sibling will jus 借题发挥 and at least "yeah, I managed to bully bro back at least a little." then display that "see, I also win" look. Haha..
Hmm.. This is jus how siblings work and it's amazing how they can argue and fight like no ones business, scream at each other etc, ultimately, tt invisible bond still lies. I dunno how to describe tt. But it's jus diff. :)
打虎不离亲兄弟。how true. :)

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
7:00 AM

Why i do not drink water? hahaha imagine when u do water testing everyday and then u see something as below.

Btw, this is rather mild alr k. haha.. nowadays i gotta flush the water from the dispenser a few times before i dare to drink. hahaha.. imagine.. water testing is only on 1ml of the sample. OMG. haha.. but then its ok de la..
This is the mold! i dun like it cos its very mafan when u see them. very easily spreaded and diff to count. how to get rid of molds when u see them in ur cabinets etc? this is what i do.. HEAT FIX them! haha.. use a hair dryer and heat the parts where you clean alr. this will ensure that it die Die DIE!!! hahahaSee the above? its damn cute right??!! sometimes i wonder why it will have that foldings kind of look. hahhaa its texture is machiam plastic la. there are some that is like Pi Ti (mucus) la!!

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:32 AM

wow.. theres no one at work today and i wonder why i am here. damn.

anyway, i was pissed by ASM again. wahaha.. i was talking to a vendor who is repairing the autoclave and he asked my abt my schedule this week, whether i am using etc. as i am going on leave alr, i need to complete lotsa things before i go!! precisely why i am back. but TMD, she had to step in my converstation and told the vendor, "oh, you can do as long as you like, nobody's going to use it." i was like TMD!!! sorry, the font had to be big, cos i was abt to do some stuff, but now i CANT!! WTH LA!! DAMN.

I'd jus let those bacteria multiply then. WALAO!! ARGH. nvm, i ask WFL to do then.. haiz.

anyway, received feedbacks that i sld probably speak out when i am not happy etc etc. and i did jus now. i told her, "excuse me, i still got alot of things to decon u know." and what she did? she walked away, leaving those shits to me. TMD!!!

anw, i decided to let the vendor so those stuffs so he can faster complete and i can start my runs earlier too. but still, TMD.

well, a recap on what i did to voice out.

1. Teach WFL by asking her WHY all the time. I wanna her to explain to me instead of me explaining and then her forgetting. thats why i like to ask people WHY. and also, i raised my voice when she became impatient and jus wan the answers from me. damn it, i am also fierce when neccessary de k. but know what happens? after a few rounds of those, WFL didnt dare to speak to me, and then one day, quietly came and asked me if i hated her now.. -_- omg la... hahaha if hate is jus that simple, i think the whole world may think that i hate them. -_-

2. CCL came and always talk to me when going to off work. ARGH. but i told him, "off liao. talk to me tml. whaahhaa" but i gave him extra 5 mins though. i am not that bad k.

3. CCL talk to me abt schedules etc, wan me to set a standard work etc. I hate it when things are not flexible. everythings in my mind and i dun like to fix. No no no. Then he took my calender and wanted to write on it. i told him. "do not write anything on the calender. cos i will jus stop using the calender, cos i dun like ppl to write on my stuff." and then he really nv write. hahhaa ITS MY CALENDER! why sld ppl write and fix stuff on MY CALENDER??!!

4. LYL noticed that the exit lights are flickering, then asked if i've written and SOR. when i said no, he said, "then you can write on that." and gave me a silly smile. well, i asked him back, "then you've written one?" he said no. i asked why he dowan to write then. he shook his head profusely and said "dowan dowan dowan." then i said, "THEN WHY U ASK ME TO WRITE??!!!" haiz.. its not that its diff or tt i am lazy to write etc. its jus that, i dowan to help them all these stuffs anymore. FACE REALITY man. FACE IT, cos you cant hide forever.

5. ASM always come and piss me off tt i cant really remember everything le. I jus remember for everything i felt pissed, i voiced out. till she ask me to go and die, cos i was really crude w my words. not leniant at all. haha that is jus how bad.

6. the chemists scolded us for putting the acids stuff in the cupboard and the hinges got rusty. and reminded that we sld use the chemical cabinet instead after our 6S the other time. well, to be truthful, i also forgot abt it cos i am not working in the chemical area now. haiz. and then TQW asked me in front of everybody if that is what was communicated the other time. I said "YES. but i think everyone was still comfortable w the past and forgot abt the present, me too. Please use the cabinet next time." i am upset of cos. cos i did the 6S so thoroughly and yet, it doesnt seem to be appreciated. ok microlab is a damn mess too. wahaha well, i guessed hes upset that i said that in front of everyone. but its not "anna suo1 le4 jiu4 suan4 k" i am a human and my brain is not boundless though i still choose to believe that it is. wahaha

7. Jus had an incident and thanks to WFL who helped me out cos this is the first time i am doing that procedure. wahaha i learnt something new. :) then ASM came in and chap again. and told us, jus use water can alr ma. i was pissed cos i was processing this new data and she had to come and confuse me. and so i said. "shut up if u dunno what we are talking abt." yes, i am jus that serious abt work.

well, is it good or bad? no idea. i still prefer to be the me who stabs her own heart? haha cos even when i voice out, i still hurt. argh. but i think voice out also good la. confused.

Btw, for work wise, work is work, outside of work, i dun bring these prob abt them one k. cos they are still my frens after work. <- in case some ppl put words into my mouth again.

Got some suppliers that really make me wanna vomit blood. Dun like these new comers. not that i dun give chance. but the first impression is damn impt. if you are not sure, ask. dun assume and dun let me complete my sentence then say get back to me again. well, i will jus strike off future deals, cos repeating again and again is jus a waste of my time. well, i can be like get along very well w suppliers etc. but when its abt benefits in business etc, i will still choose the one that benefits more. well, business is jus business. the hard truth. if you cant handle that, then you jus have to shutdown.

shit.. i think i am becoming more and more void of feelings. omg.. i am becoming inflexible. sucks. time to review soon.

This morn, WFL found out that the imps run that LYL ran last week, all need to be rejected. cos he placed the wrong vial in the wrong LC. he was still telling us that day that we sld do one LC by one LC, do things slowly when we asked why he dowan to start the 2 LCs at the same time since the same standard is used. NOW, he still made mistakes. HAIZ. this is the kind of mistakes i wont wan to make. cos i am very turn off by the idea that i need to repeat those prep and weighings all over again. RIGHT FIRST TIME. haiz. i wish LYL commits less mistakes else, i think PDP he will die till jialat jialat. Plus that new ger is coming soon.. young and energetic, and enthu abt learning. If old birds lose out to her, its a very throw face thing. well, maybe in terms of command of language etc is ok, but, in terms of exp and standard etc, its.... haiz...

tml got a paper.. T_T i like ytd cos i felt that do and do and do enthusiasm. haven felt that in a long while. but i cant say that i can solve the questions without the formulas etc. hopefully the lecturer really give those formulas he promised.. and pls... NO DERIVATION PLS.... i know its not that i cannot do la.. its jus a yin1 ying3 in the past. haha.. that i couldnt do it, thats why i refused to face derivations till now. the word "derive" irks me as much as the word "projects".
YUCKS.
SAVE ME... everyone's on leave MUGGING... and me? typing away here. wahaha
need to get rid of those tots to have more space la. =P
i remember adam khoo said: "exams is jus a test of how fast you can write down whatever you learnt." obviously, hes not from engineering. DAMN. exams is not jus abt memorising!! its abt understanding and applying what u understand!! UNDERSTAND!!
ok.. but i do agree his words to a certain extent.
anyway, gimme all the luck u have and i need to be a bit more excited abt the upcoming trip. haha..
can seem to be excited when i think of the coming MAY.. omg..
its gonna be a I "LOVE" NUS month.
Damn.

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
9:09 AM

Was watching 前线追踪 jus now.. And it showed the ppl fighting w cancer..
Interviewed e family members.. And it's true.. What's most painful is tt you know tt person is in pain and yet there's nothing you can do abt it. Only to appear strong and be strong for the cancer patient..
I knew I lost it during tt time.. But I continued to lost my senses more.. Still in the midst of recovering.. But suddenly, today I feel very tired. Very tired.
Last time, everytime papa had an asthma attack, I would always try to imagine how it's like to be gasping for air.. Feeling pain, anxious and upset for him. I talked to tt star every nite, wishing he would get better w each day, and wishing tt I am the one who have those illnesses instead, and cut down my life in exchange for his.. Ok.. Except nites when papa throw temper at us probably.
But I am no doctor nor am I god. I imagined too much tt sometimes I tot I had those symptoms too. Now I am confused sometimes. When doctors say that he's alright, that's all we could believe.. And then, watch him suffer and there's nothing more tt we can do for him.
I dunno why, but I am crying tonight again. I only know, I really love papa alot. Somehow, I missed asking him to wake up and go back to bed to sleep instead of sleeping infront of the tv.. miss him taking over the tv so I got no tv to watch.. Miss him saying "做了!" when commercials end. Miss him saying those stories on tv were written by him when he guessed the next happening correct. Miss him saying tt they changed the script when he guessed wrongly. Miss him opening my room door suddenly and I go "tsk". Miss him asking me how's my studies. Miss him asking me to go and bath. Miss him shaking his head when I tell him, "这样咯＂after each paper.
Basically, jus missing him.
Sorry I couldn't do more.
I miss u.

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
12:45 AM

So what story are u weaving tonight?
Seriously reminds me of the bad guy in Rumpelstiltskin! Nv heard of it? Go and read la!! :P
乘人之危 and nv do things when its of no benefit to u. Nah. Dun say tt u did before. U jus twist things up.
But 恶人必有恶报。watch it. U might jus lose ur tongue one day.

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:23 PM

I get damn excited when I meet ppl w PASSION!! Ppl who does things w tt spark in their eyes!! So much tt I forgot all the bad things tt happened during the day. Haha
In case u are wondering wat, I jus completed my FYP interim presentation!! But w/o any rehearsal!! Cos there was simply no time.. On the way to sch, TQW keep talking to me!! Haha.. anyway, the presentation went well, and they went GOOD!!! :D the PHD student even want the ref where I got my data from. :|
I jus talk based on exp and they challenged me w every kind of question which I jus ans based on exp. :D it's great when u see they cannot continue asking anymore. :D
Anw, was disappointed by their problem solving skills at the starting when the master and PHD students were helping me to set up the system.. Fidgeting w the remote and pressing watever buttons there is on the machine. I saw tt there was no light on the machine, then looked ard the room and scanned if switches are switched on.. Then walked over and switch it on. And TADA!!! The machine started running. And they went, "WOW!!! What did u do???!!!" I went.. "switch on the power supply? -_-|||"
hahaha nice ice breaker ya? Haha.. Then thruout the presentation, I also crack jokes which made them laughed. Haha well I also made jokes out of their questions. Hahaha it's a nice presentation! Not scary like ppl described! But my examiner is a scary guy! Haha act tough only.. Haha
Actually I very scared la. Haha but then I tot, wth la. Jus 豁出去啦!! and then I turned into another person! :D
After tt, the PHD student shared his proj w me.. And I gave him real life examples of what happened before in my company.. And he said tt I validated his project!! :D now I got extra work... Prof ask me to read thru his work and share ideas.. -_-||| what did I get myself into!! Haiz
So, jus when I thinking, can I meet in June? He said tt his proj will end in may.. :( so tt means may is a damn "exciting" month for me. Prof said he's lucky cos there's a few PH during may. So..... Am I supposed to come back during those days?? T_T
Sian diao. Anw, it's jus this one year left!!
Gambatte!!!!

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
6:58 PM

read back on my post back in 2003 and 2004.. wow.. and it was like jus back to ytd when it happened. cos images jus appear naturally.

saw some quizes that i took.. things abt me.. i realised, i haven changed! haha... but i was much more energetic then.

one thing i can be sure is, i still smile when i see the past.. =) Today morn reached company earlier.. was taking a nap, then TKK came.. i dunno why they must do things in the PING PING PONG PONG way. damn noisy.

anyway, i dun like to talk in the morn. and most of the time i will jus "orh" to whatever ppl say during that period. and i dun like it when ppl talk too loud or start gossiping right in the morn. and, I AM NOT A DIRECTORY who takes attendence for ppl. So quit asking me if this person is here, where is she etc. I have decided to jus say, "i dunno", "I dun think so..", "maybe..". UNLESS, that person is within my sight. Thank you.

had a nice bday on fri, i really feel happy when my frens are happy together. when they combine to suan me together, i felt warmth. haha..

then sun, bought a TV!! will be installing it on papa's bday.. :) haiz..

met up w cand for awhile.. then went to dinner w family. ATE SO MUCH LA!

oh.. then i also decided not to reply some ppls' msg. For one, since you like to tell ppl that i dun reply u when u nv did msged me, say i reject u when i wasnt asked, i might as well make it true for you. reduce ur sin so you wouldnt be lying the next time u tell those supposingly lies.

looked back at some msges that you sent, made me think abit and felt guilty? but after awhile, i gather you were jus trying to manipulate my mind and making use of my weakness. then i tot those were BS.

Even if everything may be misunderstandings, but thanks for talking behind me and make everything worse.

Something i found from long ago.. and i justify that it is true.

Choose your friends by their character, and choose your socks by their color.

Choosing your socks by their character makes no sense, and choosing your friends by their color is unthinkable.

True friends are the ones who never leave your heart, even if they leave your life for a while.

Even after years apart, you pick up with them right where you left off, and even if they die, they're never dead in your heart.

Be yourself because the people that mind don't matter and the people that matter don't mind.

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:05 AM

Today, saw my MD statement for the year 2011 in About Us.
"a placid year, very much welcomed and needed after the ferocious year of the tiger. We should go off to some quiet spot to lick our wounds and get some rest after the battles of the previous year."
I tot.. Really meh... Maybe sld hoh.. Haha
then his next sentence kick me into reality.
"hmmm! I don't think so - doesn't sound like the life in GSK to me."
Haha.. True. Why give up jus cos we were wounded? We sld continue to soar!!
Well it did motivate me for 10min! Haha..
Hmm.. But ya, we sld always strive for the better!
RAWRRRR!!!!
Do more, Feel better, Live longer!!!
Hmm.. But I dowan to live that long. :p

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
11:47 PM

And because I am not sober. Thanks AC and MSY for sending me.'
Totally cmi..
And cos I told my lect I am giving him my presentation tml, I am so dead.
I suppose I am left w one hour to do when I wake..
Argh.. Gone.. Nitez..
I am so 厉害 to update in this state..

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
12:40 AM

=_=

so nonsense.. haha.. I met a colleague from another dept jus now, and the first thing she told me was... "I heard u are leaving leh.."

=_= am i going to be retrenched? haha... how come i dunno i will be leaving when others know?

haha.. anyway, in general, i am glad that ppl whom i know will come and clarify things with me instead of ASSUMING. not like some asses who ASSUMED then spread rumours. And YES, i mean you, you and you!! Yes you! if you hesitated and tot for awhile "is it me??" then perhaps, you had been assuming too!

Nononoo... not you. dun worry.

well, ASSUME makes an ass out of U and Me.. I am definitely not an ass like you, but i kenna contaminated by ur ASS words. so get away from me k. GET LOST.

rumours are so scary. they travel so fast. Hence, i believe, ppl are jus too free nowadays and tries to find things to spice up their life (at the expense of other ppl). Well, i am glad tt i could contribute to their BORING life and spice it all up! =)

Definitely made me ku1 xiao4 bu4 de2. haha..

Am looking forward to tonight! Frens meeting frens meeting frens! =))

I jus love it when all my frens can be frens w each other. wahahaha

=D

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
10:36 AM

This video decribes totally for these ppl in my life. =) they know who they are. =)

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
12:55 AM

Ytd meet xiao Hun Hun men for movie and chilling. :) rio is nice.. But not much takings from the movie.. Only, believe.. Believe in urself. :)

Well, finish work early and got nothing to do, I called "mr Teh" (Nick) and told him I'd go to his place first. Knowing my agenda, he keep rejecting and asking me to go home. But I still 厚着脸皮 and said, I will go his place. Hahaha

First thing he said when he saw me was, "no Teh-ing" ah. But I didn't care. :) nag him together w aunty see see. Hahaha but hoh, his temper really not good sia.. Haiz then used min's name to get him out of the hse, else he still dowan to bath! Haha.. At the bus stop, met Gera. So qiao. Didn't know she at home la. And finally! We got feli waiting for us! =x

After movie, went dinner at waraku. Not nice de. Slacked ard and finally settled at MBS to HTHT.. Gossip abt our mothers and I mocked ah ter abt his temper which improved tremendously! Well, for all, saying is easy.. But at least must try to do ya.. I am still trying too. We concluded that sandy is the best at por-ing mummy. An example was showed promptly on our next event. Hahaha

Had a bday celebration w oli at gardenasia. Wanted to have Mac party de.. T_T hahaha anyway, it was so freaking hot! I'm sorry, I know I chose the place. But I didn't expect tt as well. I am glad all cooperated! :) the most 经典 present would be the peanut butter from Nick! Damn cheapo, still take from gor's hse somemore.. -_-||| well, it's added to my daily breakfast daymare. Haha..
It's jus a pity that it's too hot to continue, but the place is relaxing de la..

After tt, went home to change.. Cos can't take it le.. Then went back to clementi.. Played for awhile then it's dinner time! As usual, holland..

Well, it's not what's new and interesting.. It's the company and time together tts impt. Jus knowing tt no matter wat, these are the people who will always stay, that's enough. :)

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
8:12 PM

Dun like it when I accomplish nothing at work. Preferred like the other day when I jus help ppl do. Wahaha

Last fri, so many ppl were on leave and mc.. So I decided to put my things aside and help them clear backlogs instead.

Throughout the day, ppl were asking me questions and clearing their doubts. And I was rather fierce to WFL, cos she nv learns. I told her if she wans to be anxious and wan me to jus clear her prob, then she can figure it out herself. So while teaching her, as usual, TKK will try to poke fun and say alot of nonsense to bring WFL down further. Anyway, I conclude that is jus her character, having fun in the wrong way, at the expense of other ppl (jus like some Bs). And so I opened my "golden mouth". Nope, I did not say, "can you shut up, 没有讲话你会死啊." (though that was wat I wanted to say) I figured it was wrong in the split second and said "不要disturb她啦." and then she diam diam Liao. Too noisy... I cannot take it.
tt day, we cleared all or most of the documentations that ASM refused to do (though it's her job). Seriously irritated! SO MUCH!!! Haiz..
Ytd, she still had the cheek to tell the rest, "不要惹我啊，我心情不好." and then still come and talk to me. I understand the woes of finding a new job and wondering if the next is better or wat. But no point taking it out on others (jus like some other Bs), they dun bloody pay u! Of cos, she didn't say tt sentence to me. She took it out on easier to bully ppl, eg WFL.
Hope the next one tt comes is not like tt.
Anw, helped MSY fren to keep a lookout on a job.. I am not like best frens w tt manager. In fact I only met him once! Haha.. So no point calling me and be so anxious ya.. I dun work as a HR there.
Then, help another fren to intro his own company to become a supplier of my company.. And on a kind note, asked him to send me his catalogs so I can introduce to my procurement.. but.. He asked me to fill up a form, a survey form. And since work is work, eventually I will treat his company as the same as the rest. So I gather that I have done enough by introducing to the right dept. And I wasn't really happy abt the way he approached. Call me niao. But this is the business world.
Mistakes he made:
1. By posting on my FB wall.
2. Sending me the form via his personal mail.
3. Asking me to meet to catch up. (damn excuse. And no, I no longer work after office hours)
4. Scanning the form instead of soft copy. (being environmental frenly, I refuse to print out, fill it up then scan it back to him. I'll use paint instead.)
5. Scanning the form as 2 separate documents for 2 diff pages in pict format instead of PDF.
6. The form is jus too messy and my brain refused to process it. (on a general note, all customers prefer it simple and straighforward.)
7. Asking for the price we used to get. (sorry, but I refuse to disclose these kind of info. Even if I do, it would be at least 20% lower than what I got)
8. No proper format in the email, meaning his title, phone or fax etc.
9. Cramping every sentence into one chunk. (yeah my blog may be in chunks, but during work, I absolutely dun do tt.)

What I'll suggest? Please understand ur IT stuff first and fulfil my requirements. I may seem to be damn niao, but believe it or not, my suppliers always still say I am very kind to them and they have more diff to please ones.. And I like them cos they always use my feedback. :)
Ok.. Eyes pain alr. Cannot blog too long.. Later then I update on the HTHT day.. And the day in nature, not. :)

\\`jUz m3 mYs3lF & i`//
7:30 AM

A year ago, someone screamed at me jus cos he didn't sleep properly and got sore eyes, can't find the proper carpark etc. Now I got sore eyes. Sld I find someone to scream at too? No. Cos taking out on others is not right.
QNMD!
Happy birthday oli!
Yeah I got double character, snap of the fingers, I am the other me. :)

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7:06 PM

Really must peifu my last min skills.. Procrastinated for a month plus, and managed to come up w something within 10min.. Then went to talk to prof for abt an hour. (I'm a good crapper)
It's fansinating how his eyes lite up w so much passion when I presented. Well, I talk w my exp.. So diff to put them down into words.. And we gossiped abt suppliers. So fun.
Then I told him, I'd see him ard may.. And he gave me a sad and puzzled look.. Then said, "won't I see u during e presentation?" haha yeah I instantly forgot abt it. And we laughed.
Was late for dinner w MSY.. So she passed me my drink and went to meet her prof. Then came back and pei me after tt.. Haha so we had dinner together, individually.
After dinner, went to lecture hall, only to find out that it's not more than 5min and it's over! My side's prof didn't even turn up!! Reason why we dun go sch sometimes ya.. Waste of time.. Haiz..
And so instead of taking the usual 151, I pei her take train instead. Bonding session.. Haa too long nv talk Liao.. And we decided to collaborate and exchange stuffs when our labs lack of anything. :) 互相帮忙 u see.. And I pluck up my courage and called a supplier again to help her fren get a job.. Haa.. Hopefully he gets it. :)
Oh ya.. Today when I went to company, ASM suddenly came in and told me she will resign anytime cos she unhappy w the way company deal w stuff.. Haiz.. I do agree.. And I was so shocked and dunno what to say, cos her tears jus came down when telling me.. All I cld was to give her a pat on the back.. And ask her to think and plan properly.. Haiz.. Damn.. Now I've seen all the female colleagues cry before in front of me..
Btw, I am like this.. Work is work, and after work is after work.. I dun mix them for personal reasons one k. :) and i do tell ppl when i am not happy w their work style. I am not like those hypocrites out there.

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1:31 AM

Today woke up late cos forgot to set alarm, so decided to take half day leave.. T_T my precious leave...
Anyway, woke up and drank the cold Milo mum made in the morn. Reminds me of pri/sec sch days when I return home, take the cold (milk particles alr visible) Milo, and then take an afternoon nap. Arghzzz I miss tt kind of life.. Haha..
Seriously, I hate the word "project". My mind jus totally switch off to anything that has tt in the name. Yucks.
Ytd found out tt some ppl, acts as though she knows me tt well. PUI. And tell ppl nonsense and acts like ms-know-it-all. Oh pls. I dun even know I did those things, and u know? HAHAHA joke of a century!!
Anyway, DL2 told me stuffs and reassured me of wat kind of person I am, and I feel so good! :) yeah. Cos it's your lost that you preferred to try get ppl away from me due to ur lack of security + fakeness. THANKS!
I am glad that I managed to see things and Kat was right. Whoever doesn't bothers to find out the truth and believes those nonsensical ppl, doesn't matter as well. :D

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12:19 PM

Jus received a news from K jiejie.. That her dad has less than a month time to live.. Immediately, my heart sank.. And tots came flooding back.
The last time doc says my dad still have half a year, he only managed 2 weeks..
Teach me how to cope w adversity..
Too short a period.. Too short..
I am hoping for the best..
Stopping tears from flowing once again..
Pls.. Pls.. Be well.. I dunno what else to wish for.. Pls.. Dun leave w regrets.. :(

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5:39 PM

sometimes, you dunno if working is worth the effort. Finance took me for granted and instead of liasing w the vendor herself, she ask me to be middleman. look at me, do i look like i got extra time to meddle w these affairs? in any case, i have decided, instead of doing it immediately (cos i have a short memory span, so i do immediately for ppl), i am giving any this kind of request a one week span. you cannot wait, you do yourself. enough of clearing shits for ppl. and that stupid FEDEX. and that messed up shipment. do i look like i got authority to decide stuffs? i am jus a bloody technician k. asked CCL to settle w the authorities last week, and washed my hands off this prob. I told him specifically, EMAIL AVA. and he called FEDEX to ask them to settle. ARGH watever. I only know i kenna scolding from MOH and got threatened that they will send back the package. In wat way am i supposed to be taken blamed for? i dunno. so i was SO pissed and i got all the documents and asked CCL to settle. I am not a management staff. I only order things that are required. WATEVER that requires confirmation or wat, i am not authorised to do so. And then that ECO. owed me the certs for damn long. and therefore, i held payment for 3 months. I said, if i dun receive the documents i requested, they will not receive payment. and i mean what i say. Stupid finance came and threaten me and said, the MD will question me if i dun proceed w payment. WATEVER ok. i hold the payment so that Quality received whatever documents that is required. and that is wat means more to the QUALITY department. Else, i dun even care abt any paper work ya? Dun meet my specs, then to hell w ur $$. I dun care. Anyway, i think finance is going to do a complain on me. hahaha cos i am now doing payment for 3 months straight. and its rather messy. But, WATEVER. if a non finance personnel, me, can relate all the documents, why cant a professional do it? thats what u are here for ya? cannot make it, then be ready for replacement. THATS WHAT I FEEL NOW. of cos.. being a person full of emotions and humanity, i will still help whenever needed. cos we are all a family under the same company. I JUS REQUIRE YOU TO LEARN AND NOT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED. so if i kenna complained, i shall take that as a declaration for war? haha.. cos for a thing, if ppl forgo watever i have done for them for years, i shall forgo emotions too. Cos i know wat i did was right. to protect QUALITY from being bullied by external suppliers etc. others are all secondary. then when i need to sort some documents out, and ask the person who have been handling the system to drag out a doc from the system.. and got back a "eh.. I dunno." i nearly screamed at that person. cos i jus look at the system, i know how to do liao. i jus wan that person to at least try!!! damn waste of my time. so i did it myself. ARGH. clear shits clear shits.. haiz. then my OJT... damn it la. briefing sld be done by the management. but i have to write all myself. its not self reading ya? ARGH. then, when the chemists tells other colleagues to write incident reports cos they are the ones who witness the incidents etc.. in my mind, i tot "damn... its gonna be me again.." and its true! after which, they came to look for me and ask me where and how to do. T_T and i am too tired to be bothered to teach anymore.. plus, i dun wanna help at all, cos i dowan them to think that there is always a me for back up. and WFL has disappointed me again and again. my painstaking step by step powerpoint for her to help me out when needed was rebuked by "i really dunno how to do la..." makes me jus wan to tear that piece of work up. but i know i will regret, cos i dun have softcopy. haha.. and i wont do it again. plus i am not that hard hearted to hurt ppl feelings like that. its been 3 years...... still she tells me she dunno how to do.. am i jus too patient or wat? why is it like i am the one who can tolerate ppl, but ppl cannot tolerate me? actually my head is spinning now. so i have not much idea what i have jus written. jus letting out. ARGH. one of those mood swing days? no leh.. i am still feeling alright. confused. ARGH. WATEVER.

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10:15 AM

Firstly, Happy Birthday Cand!
Ok.. Updates.. Days before, I had a bad mood swing.. Cos the day before I slept at 5am and woke up at 545am.. To do the farewell gift for KWC.. Well, i sld be glad that ppl recognized my ability to design gifts w diff style all the time.. But I alr stopped doing so for the past one year plus. This was a last min thing, and was taken for granted that I would do it. But then, for KWC, I will la..
And so, tt day, I had to pass the stuff ard for ppl to sign.. And I was super particular that they wouldn't fold or make any unnecessary marking on the paper.. And then ASM wrote out of the box!!! I screamed w anger, and she said, "dun care, it's my style." I swear, I slapped her virtually. Yeah her style, nv listens to instructions and untidy? Argh.
Then comes TKK.. Placed the paper half on the table and half dangling.. Then places her arm on the paper... And made a fold!!!!! I screamed, and I gave her a shock. Well, I jus can't take it when ppl dun appreciate and jus think of it as a piece of paper!
Those aside. I am ok now.. I have more energy doing these stuffs than doing the FYP or sometimes, for now, work.
Then on the day when KWC was leaving, I didn't feel a pang of sadness.. Why? Cos I know that there is no point in feeling sad for someone whom I know will stay in my life for long. :) I sld be happy that he has taken that first step to persue wat he wans. :) JIAYOU!!
During the last few mins, was awkward.. Why? Cos... Really dunno wat to say.. It's like... Omg.. Won't be able to see u here anymore.. Felt like hugging him la.. But that's not me.. Aiya.. Haiz.. Jus lost a partner who will pat my head when I need, smack my head when required, call me names and joke or defend me. I told him we would hve chance to work together again in future. He said he would be waiting for me to join him.:)
But seriously, when I stepped out of company, I felt as though it was my last day.. U know tt feeling?
Anw, OBK got a validation officer to speak to me abt her jobscope.. He's damn 厉害.. Cos he got someone who speaks w passion! And that's what made me interested in that job.. I love to work w ppl w passion. It makes everything much more interesting.
But she made a not so frenly comment, saying why OBK is so anxious to get a post for me when I haven grad.. Haiz.. I had to find some excuse out so there wouldn't be nonsense spreading ard..
But anw, when I got back to office, rumours alr out.. I have to 佩服 ASM for her networking skills.. Someone I dun even know talked to her abt me and said OBK wans to speak to me etc. Argh. I hate it when I alr tried to keep it under the blanket for so long. Humans sometimes jus got nothing much to do.. I jus dowan ppl to think that I can achieve things cos I got backers. That's not true. :( and I'll feel stress.
Met a supplier the other day.. And he's scared of me cos he delayed my shipment.. So he brought his manager down and printed some quotations in hope as evidence to shoot me if I demand my shipment. But Harlow.. Am I tt demanding? I jus hoped that they could hopefully help me bring it in fast. And it sld serve as a reminder not to delay like the last time. I dun have many 1/2 a year to wait. And tt guy.. Totally can't speak well.. How to do sales!!! Mostly is the manager talk lo.. Haiz.. Then halfway thru the talk, the manager suddenly divert topic.. And ask abt my work here etc. Then he offered me a job at his company! -_-||| but I swear I can do better than his this current guy. =| I shall not elaborate how this guy step on my tail for many times alr. He's new.. He's new..
Anw, I met an interesting cab uncle.. He knows 13 languages!! Out of which, 11 were learnt by himself when he travels! He said we must have 3 things in order to do something well..
1. Like it
2. Love it
3. Enjoy it
Hmm.. I think it all boils down to passion! We dun have to live the expectations of others, and dun have to have high expectations for ourselves.. Life is abt learning.. And jus be happy. If u do things w passion, u will be happy..
Seriously, I am a person who can find interest in almost everything I do, cos I dun really have much things that I really fancy. but right now, what's happening!
All in all, I am jus a person who is easily satisfied la.. even if I hav a big dream, I am still contented w wat I have. I have dreams cos my dreams consist of ppl I love! :)
Hmm.. Jus do more, expect less, be satisfied. :)
PS: to my sis who is stalking me, u, do more hsework, expect less from me, be satisfied that I always treat u so well k. ;)
I always have double meanings to whatever I say. :p

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5:06 AM